'i feel that in many people including myself. there lacks a feeling of self-belief sometimes. especially in your ability in handling a difficult situation or whether u are fit enough for the role that u have been given. in releationships, this also happens. u give up totally. cause u dun feel gd enough for that person. he may be too smart. she may be too pretty. he may be too cool. blah blah blah. it's all a matter of perspective. i have to learn that too.'
'i feel that in our society today there are many unwritten crimes and rules about ur behaviour or certain selections. for this sentence itself i may be criticized but since this is my blog i am entitled to write whatever i feel. sometimes, it is a crime to be juz urself. u get criticized for doing something which is natural to ur character. sometimes i can often see the frustration as their behaviour is being limited. sometimes i hate these rules. at this moment got a lil mental block. so i can only think of one at the present moment in time. a guy should not go for a girl older den u. ( sorry to disappoint all of u reading out dere but i'm free and single and not thinking of being attached to anyone at the present moment in time. so dun come and suan me). my mum is older den my dad. which is not conventional in any sense. i find this irritating. i mean a lot of the ppl i noe wun even consider someone older or younger den them( depends on the gender of course). which really puzzles me. an older girl in a releationship is a rarity, juz like the olden days. for me. maybe i juz meet more older girls. hahaha. lame excuse. now noone though. so yea. free to be crazy as usual.'
back from my crazy thoughts. thought about those two ideals in the shower. lovely to get that out of my system. always thought about that. about today.. hmm.. pretty fun. haha. no lessons today. cuz all my teachers went for a course which gives us free periods which we juz waste away. but who cares. we have fun.. playing cards. using the teacher's pc to access internet and dl cool videos and stuff. funny how the most fun things are illegal. watching the soccer video too. totally rocks. seeing steve froggart's screamer into the top corner sure gives me memories. den went to j8 eat sweets and apple pie. den when we reached sch. to our horror we found out tt our teacher had asked another teacher to take us to the lab and we were 15 mins late. thankfully. he did not scold us. -phew- normal training happened after that. den dunno why my coach queerly released me early. i din go back home of cuz. not in my nature to do so. thankfully i did not. i played bball with a couple of exchange students who were attached to my class frm nz one. haha. damn fun. me joshua and some other fella whose name i cant remember whooped their ass. even though at the start they were leading and they had a physical advantage. we showed them who was boss. yea baby!!=). i even had a little duo with christian. his soccer is real gd. but i popped in three baskets over his head today. all righttt! heh those bunch of dudes are real cool. heh. tt ends my day. nothing else happened.
signing off.........
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